Why have I been so frustrated for the past week?
Why didn’t I jump at the chance? -_-
I oddly feel better. :)
Sure the funeral was really sad, and I couldn’t acknowledge he was gone until I saw them take him away at the crematorium. When I went up to put a flower in his open casket, looking at his face, I just imagined he’d get up and say this was all just a big joke. I kept waiting for it to happen, but it never did. I held it together because I can’t break down in public. But, it’s such a beautiful day and I’d like to think it’s because of him since he was such a happy person. Even though he’s not physically with us, he still manages to brighten up everyone’s day. :)
I feel so much better right now.